A missionary that our church supports passed away yesterday after a very short illness. I didn't really know him, he and his wife obviously spent most of their time on the mission field. Despite that, I am struggling a bit with sadness at his passing. I think I know why. I can't imagine being as strong as his wife has been as she faced the possibility of his passing.
She kept their supporting churches up to date on his condition through e-mails, which our Pastor forwarded on to the rest of us. In each e-mail, she spoke of her willingness to "let him go to Jesus", or that she held him up to God in her open hand, or that she knew she would be reunited with him in Heaven.
I know that my husband is headed for Heaven when he dies, as I am too. BUT, I don't know if I could be as brave as her. I am sure in her dark moments alone, she fought the desire to keep holding on. But isn't it amazing that God ultimately gave her a peace, which allowed her to be an amazing testimony to me! The first picture I have in my mind when facing such a moment is with my arms wrapped tightly around the waist of my husband and my legs woven around his legs, forcing him to drag me along as he passed from this life into Glory. Perhaps instead, I can recall the testimony of Louise Barnard and recognize that the Lord gives us the strength and ability to face the dark moment of saying goodbye to the love of our life.
Obviously, I pray that such a moment is years and years away. Hopefully, in my VERY old age, I can recall the lesson learned from Mrs. Barnard.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Missing the forest for the trees....
Age-old proverb, but how true it is in our lives.
There have been some changes in my horse business in the last three months. Most took tons of prayer, thought and more than a couple tears. Now that the changes are in place, I am learning a new way of looking at my business. In the past, my focus has been getting these horses into the show ring to showcase their quality and eventually make that perfect connection that leads to a successful sale. This focus was taught by the horse trainer we were using.
So as we switched to a new trainer at the beginning of the year, my focus was once again on the show ring. To the point that I was ready to do a second switch to yet another trainer in an effort to keep costs to a minimum. As I discussed this decision with the current trainer, he moved my focus to a completely different direction. Why was I worrying about the show ring and all the expenses that go with it??? Because that was where trainer Mike's focus had always been, was my reply. Well, Lee is switching that up. We are now focusing on turning out a great product, advertising it hard and getting him sold so that someone else can take on the expenses of showing "their" horse in the show ring.
How many times are we out of focus? Confident and committed to a notion that is not the ultimate direction we should be heading? It doesn't matter how committed you are to that idea, if it is the wrong direction, we need to rein it in (pardon the pun) and rethink what we are doing and why we are doing it. Lee described what he was "hearing" from me and quickly assessed what direction I needed to be heading with my horse business. And he was right, no matter how much fun it is to have your horse in the show ring, as a breeder, my focus needs to be on getting these horses sold as early in their career as possible. The same goes in my Christian walk. I must be constantly assessing where I am and where God wants me to be. And not be afraid of changing my focus when God shows me a better way.
There have been some changes in my horse business in the last three months. Most took tons of prayer, thought and more than a couple tears. Now that the changes are in place, I am learning a new way of looking at my business. In the past, my focus has been getting these horses into the show ring to showcase their quality and eventually make that perfect connection that leads to a successful sale. This focus was taught by the horse trainer we were using.
So as we switched to a new trainer at the beginning of the year, my focus was once again on the show ring. To the point that I was ready to do a second switch to yet another trainer in an effort to keep costs to a minimum. As I discussed this decision with the current trainer, he moved my focus to a completely different direction. Why was I worrying about the show ring and all the expenses that go with it??? Because that was where trainer Mike's focus had always been, was my reply. Well, Lee is switching that up. We are now focusing on turning out a great product, advertising it hard and getting him sold so that someone else can take on the expenses of showing "their" horse in the show ring.
How many times are we out of focus? Confident and committed to a notion that is not the ultimate direction we should be heading? It doesn't matter how committed you are to that idea, if it is the wrong direction, we need to rein it in (pardon the pun) and rethink what we are doing and why we are doing it. Lee described what he was "hearing" from me and quickly assessed what direction I needed to be heading with my horse business. And he was right, no matter how much fun it is to have your horse in the show ring, as a breeder, my focus needs to be on getting these horses sold as early in their career as possible. The same goes in my Christian walk. I must be constantly assessing where I am and where God wants me to be. And not be afraid of changing my focus when God shows me a better way.
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